I'm Baaaaack!!

It's like it happened overnight although it still took me a few days to fully accept it, but I think I can safely say that my morning sickness is pretty much gone!!!! I feel sooooo much better. I have energy and can basically eat whatever I want again, with only a few exceptions. The main thing is just to make sure I am eating every 2 hours. I even caught myself at work on Friday thinking "No problem, I can do this!" And I really can! I'm glad and excited to be pregnant again. 8 weeks and counting...

First Appointment

We had our first appointment with the midwife today. We finally did the math, calculating my average 30 day cycle and we have an official due date of February 6, 2006. I will have to be 16 days late if I'm to hit my mom's envisioned due date of February 22. Who can really tell how it will all play out...

One thing we think we know for sure is that we will have a home birth! I asked about my blood type and all that who-haw and it realy isn't a problem. After birth the Midwife will take a sample of the baby's cord blood and take it to the hospital to get tested. If the babies blood is positive, then she will come back with the shot of RoGam I need. I have 72 hours after giving birth to take the RoGam, so it really isn't the emergency we once thought it to be. As for other unforseen complications that may arise, the Midwife will be there to monitor me and make a decision to bring me to a hospital if that is what's needed. Only 6% of home births result in a C-Section, as compared to 11% of hospital birth's with midwives attending and 25% of hospital births with GP's or OB's. You loose your voice as soon as you hit a hospital and there have been many studies done showing that C-Sections are done far too quickly and uneccessarily.

Anyways, we like our Midwife team, they all seem very nice and are full of information. Their office is comfortable and relaxing unlike a sterile doctor's office and for these reasons alone it's worth it for me. I always get so worked up when I go to a doctor's office or a hospital, like I can't breathe properly.

7 weeks and still nautious. Can only seem to eat very bland plain foods, and even then it's tough sometimes. Still trying to stay positive while I train for the full time Rentals Position I am covering for the month of July. I feel like I spend most of my energy these days just trying to get through work without looking or acting like I'm sick. 5 more weeks to go...

6 weeks!

6 weeks as of yesturday, 6 more weeks to go til the end of the first trimester, 6 weeks to go til I'm done my probationary period, 6 weeks to go til I can tell my work...

This past weeks been a bit hard actually. My metabolism seems to have sped up and I can't seem to get full, or rather stay full. As soon as I'm hungry I feel nautious and when I'm nautious I have a hard time eating. I am also really tired. Tired and nautious, that's been my fifth week. I hope the sixth is better. I am actually having a hard time accepting that I can eat more. I rarely over eat and it may sound funny, but it's hard to break the habit of eating the amount that I always eat. The amount that can usually sustain me throughout the day suddenly is not enough and I'm finding it difficult to accept that I can eat more. Because there is already such a limit to the foods I can eat, finding new foods that fill me up and work well in my crazy system, is difficult to say the least. My body is definatley changing though, so I have to catch up right quick. My breasts are huge, I have a slight bulge to my tummy which doesn't seem to go away, but my arms and fingers seem to be shrinking a bit. My rings keep falling off, which never happens...

...And I'm nesting! It's crazy, I've been selling off our furniture and replacing it with furniture that better suits our place and our needs. I have been looking at real estate and sailboats and houseboats and property like mad. I don't want to rush into something just because we have a child on the way, but at the same time, it seems like an excellent excuse to finally do something. All this talk and no action, let's finally make a decision, close our eyes and step off...

Commercial Drive Midwives

The gist of our running around yesturday is this; we have chosen a midwifery practise to help bring our child into the world. Everything about it is exactly right for us. The Midwifery Clinic is right on The Drive, a short 10 minute walk away and they can do everything a doctor or genocologist can do by way of normal prenatal testing and what not. They can give me my shot of RoGam for my RH Negative blood and order any ultrsounds that may or may not be neccessary. We will still go to a hospital to deliver the baby, but we will get a private birthing room. This means that I will labour, birth and recover in the same room with our baby. Our family can watch the birth and after 24 hours we can go home with our midwife and recover there. The clinic is peaceful and focuses on natural child birth and provides many options for doing so. There is also a fantastic lending library there so we can further educate ourselves to help us make informed decisions for our baby. My first appointment is in my 7th week on June 21. They said, like my doctor, that there is no need for blood work this early on as all it will really do is tell me that I am pregnant, which I already know. Everything else seems normal and healthy. It is normal to be gassy and bloated and to look a little pregnant almost right away and it is normal to develop cold or allergy like symptoms all thanks to excess hormones. Well, at least I don't have morning sickness, yet...

Hubba Hubba...

We went bra shopping today and you'll never guess what size I am...36D!!!!! Whaaaa, I went from 34B to 36D in like 2 weeks! Well at least I have a good bra for the next week or so!

We went to Nanaimo for the day yesturday to have lunch with my parents and tell my Nettie and Poppa the good news. I gave my Nettie a big hug when we walked in the door and she whispered "You've come to tell me you're pregnant haven't you?" Unbelievable and certainly a worthy enough reason for our daughter being called Lilian, although she says she has always wished her name was spelled Liliane with an 'e' on the end, so perhaps we shall have to honour that request as well. She also told me that she as well "felt something" at the moment of conception with all 5 of her pregnancies. It took my brain a little while to fully believe, but my heart knew all along. The farther we go with no problems the more real it's becoming...

Cancelled Doctor's Appointment

Well for some reason my doctor cancelled all his appointments today. Come on, this is only the most important doctor's appointment of my life! So I made an appointment for Monday morning...oh the torture! Slowly but surely everyone is finding out anyways. I feel pretty good, except my breasts are so sore and itchy and my nipples are sooooo huge that my breasts were a prominent feature in all my dreams last night. Amanda said she had to sleep with a bra on for almost her entire pregnancy cause they hurt so bad. It's amazing that they start to grow as soon as fertilization occurs. I mean I know they have to start building up a year's worth of milk and all, but at the rate they're growing they'll be bigger than my belly at full term! HA! I'd like to see that actually, it's a rather funny image:

That's rather disturbing. Maybe I didn't need to see that...

...Anyways, I feel pretty good today, less shaky and nervous and crazy and more stable and calm and accepting. I've also been dealing with an allergy belly the last three days which didn't help any. I shall have to be even more careful than I already am about what foods I'm eating. Just because your friend says she thinks the dessert she bought is wheat free, doesn't mean it actually is...

Second Test

Well, I took a second test yesturday because I was driving myself crazy! Yes, it was positive too, so I guess that's it then. I have a doctor's appointment on Friday so we can make sure it's a good pregnancy and all. I am much relieved but still a little shocked. No sign of Aunt Flow, so there's some more good news.

It's been a little hard on Devinder and I, all this excitement and not much time to spend toegther. Last night we finally got to lay on the couch together and go, "Wow we're pregnant, we're gonna be parents..." Then we made up some baby names for the fun of it. Mostly they were all ridiculous names like, Fredrica, Slartibartfast and Yoda. I think we both agree that if we have a girl then she will be called Lillian after my Nettie. However we will have a few names picked out in case Lillian just doesn't suit.

I am going shopping with my girls on Sunday so I can get a bra. Believe it or not, I don't have one and my breasts are so damn sore I've been discreetly holding them up with my arms crossed in front of them. I don't think that will work for the whole pregnancy though. We are also going to buy some cocoa butter so I can start enhancing my skin's elacsticity.

I am so very excited...