Excited...

I feel afraid to be excited about trying to conceive, but not because I'm scared I will never actually conceive. I am scared to be excited because I don't really believe it's actually happening and for that reason I feel that I come across as not being honest in my excitement. I am scared to be excited because I am afraid of annoying people. I am scared to be excited because although Devinder says he's ready, I feel like I may have rushed us here. I am scared to be excited because I may have rushed myself here...